Torri Wightman

when I heard it in school today I couldnt believe it. I didnt believe it. Torri Wightman, it could never happen to her. I still dont see how it could happen. I know we had our arguments but you are such a good person that those petty fights never mattered. do you remember throwing rocks at my neighbors pool? that was the first time id ever gotten in trouble. you brought out the rebel in me. it was wonderful. Torri, you helped shape me, as a person. you gave me guts as weird as that sounds. I am so sorry I havent kept in touch with you after you moved. I havent even gotten to know the people who live in your house. I think they have little kids. remember when we broke open the beanie babies and jumped on the trampoline with the beads? that was so much fun, and then we didnt understand why your mom was mad. and your play house. that was amazing. I thought that was the coolest thing id ever seen. and your drumset from aerosmith. I loved being your friend. I am so distraught. ive never lost someone close to me, or who was close to me. i hope it was painless. i know your better where you are now. Ive tried to be there, where you are now. I never fully realized the effects it would have on others lives. I hope no one else reads this. Only you. I know you can. and will. I admire you for leaving this town and changing your life as you have. I know it hasnt been by your choice but honestly, you have gone so far with your art and photography. I'm stuck here, soulless, sleepwalking through each day. I wish we could switch places, you, with so much potential could go on living and fufill your dreams, making the world a better place. I would gladly do that for you. I miss you, this shouldnt have happened to you. Its not fair. I just cant comprehend it. Maybe some things arent meant to be understood. I love you.

from an anonymous friend